Positivity

Phew. My blog has been very neglected lately. But things are starting to look a lot better, so perhaps I'll feel up to posting more often soon.

So things with Phil and myself are alright. We went on holiday for a week with his family (and flower baby of course), and that went well. We're definitely remaining apart though. He has Lily one day a week, and pops over most days after work to see her. So, things are good there. And we're trying to remain friends, although it is difficult!

Things with me are looking up too. I had an interview for a Business course at college today and got offered a place on the Level 3 course (highest course). So I'm chuffed! I start in just over a week, so have to get cracking on sorting out nursery for Lily and what not.

Here are a couple of photos from our holiday in Greece...

xoxo

It's been a while...

Hi.
Things are not so great.
Phil and I have broken up. It was a mutual decision, we both thought that it was time to give it a rest as things haven't been good for a while.
He's moved out.
I've been suffering a lot with depression for the past few months.
Before I got pregnant I suffered a lot with it. I was on anti-depressants, but I stopped taking them as soon as I found out I was pregnant.
Since then, I have felt I didn't need them. I had been the happiest I've ever been. I felt like being a mother and raising our beautiful flower baby was just what I needed to make me happy.
But it's all gone wrong. I feel so alone, even when I'm surrounded by people. I feel like I don't want to be a mother anymore. I constantly think that I wish I could just go back in time and not mess my life up so much.

I just, I just need a hug.