Recently a lot of drama has been happening. I'll leave out the details (mostly because it's personal and not particularly something I want to share with the world), but basically Phil is no longer having contact with Lils. He's stopped sending money, so I guess it's all official! I am OK with this, I know I can raise her alone, as it's pretty much what I've been doing from the start (with the help of my mum). I just feel upset for Lily's sake. Growing up without a dad is going to suck, but there are plenty of male role models in her life that I think will make up for it! The good thing is, I know plenty of people that have grown up without a dad, and my boyfriend actually has no memory of his dad, so I know it doesn't affect your life too much, as long as the mother is stable enough.
I'm back to college next week, and this is really good for me. It means I can settle back into the busy life of getting up, getting myself and Lily ready, dropping Lil at nursery, going to college, coming home from college, picking Lily up, getting dinner done, eating dinner, playing with Lil/bathing her, putting Lil to bed, tidying up and doing work. I really strive from routine, and a busy one is a good one for me! I have still been trying to look for a part-time job to get a bit more money into the situation, but I'm not sure how likely it'll be. And I'm not sure I even want one anymore, as it'll really mean that all my time at home will be spent on housework and college work, which isn't good, as I need time for Lily.
Lily has been away since Friday (it's now Tuesday) and she's coming back today! She went away with my parents to visit my sister and her daughter. They're both coming back here for the rest of the week so I can see them too. I'm very excited for Lily to come home, it's unreal how much I've missed her!
xoxo
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